They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I dont feel so pretty.
My hair came all out last night, it was quick, it happened all in the shower, and when I washed it the rest came tumbling down. I wasn’t ready for it, it caught me off guard. Maybe that was what I needed in order to cope with it. Now, my head is cold, it’s pale and it has these annoying little peach fuzz on top of it. Should I shave that off? idk.
So many people have been saying o your still beautiful, and giving so many compliments. it’s so nice of everyone, I just wish at this point i believed them. I look at myself and I see a bald female, with 1 boob and 1 peck, that’s losing weight and just not feeling herself. And it’s crazy i’m feeling all kinds of messed up today, and I’m watching tv of how these girls who have it all and are pretty, are not happy with themselves and trying to change things. and that’s me now, except if I could change things I think the last thing would be the hair or breast. I just wish so many woman can love themselves flaws and all. The beauty industry makes so much money on us insecure women.
I want to look at myself, and I want to smile and be happy with my refection. I will get there, I hope. but right now, I wish I could break every mirror in my house. it’s hard, it’s a journey. I’ll get there, I will love to look at myself again. But until then…it will be a journey.